Being a Perfectionist

We all know everyone is different; everyone has faults or simply just bizarre traits. And mine is by far the fact that I am most definitely a perfectionist.

Every little detail can bother me.

Things like crooked paintings or off centred furniture can sometimes be easily fixed, which I guess isn't too bad, but when I notice things like wooden floors that aren't aligned with the wall or the fact that my bathroom was built slanted... There is absolutely NOTHING I can do!

I can't be the only one to think this way. I can't help the fact that these things bother me.

I am always the first to notice as well.

I'll just be sitting on the couch, when I notice that a picture frame is crooked. I'll get up, change it, sit back down, look at it again, notice it's now tilting the other way, stand back up, change it again... And so on... Until I get it PERFECT!

But that's not all, if I'm playing Sims and I'm adding a window, it HAS TO BE CENTRED! If it isn't, I will change the WHOLE dimensions of the house for it to be.

But then again, this is just one of the many things I have to deal with on a daily basis.

What about you? What do you think?

-Vanna xxx

Why is There Still Snow?

 I wanted to write a quick update post. I was trying to figure out what to write about... I looked out the window and it was SNOWING!

Yes, Canada is a bizarre place.

It is officially spring, yet I can't put my coat or boots away!

Last week I thought to myself; finally! Spring is on its way...

I must have jinxed it :( because the following day, it was -27 degrees C

About a month ago, when I got home from school after having walked a while outside trying my best to avoid the wind... (Which by the way is nearly impossible, I tried walking backwards, but the wind was coming all four directions), I looked in the mirror and all of my mascara had smudged on the top of my lid! I looked like a goof...

Every morning on my way to school, I need to wear my scarf, hat and mitts, (not because I want to, just because frostbite isn't pleasant) and every day, on my way home, I have a bag full of just those things. The temperature is confusing and becomes much warmer throughout the day... This sucks! Carrying a whole lot of fluffy jackets and winter essentials is difficult...

I can't handle the cold wind freeze my finger tips and swirl through my hair creating giant knots!!

And just when you think... Yes the snow is melting! It turns into ice during the next 24 hours!

And the worst it that I KNOW once the snow starts to really melt, it will be a nightmare as well!

Last year around mid March, the snow was melting and while walking back from school a car drove by so close to the pavement, the dirty melted snow slush splashed all of my right side :(

When is spring really coming!?

If you have any suggestions or if any of you enjoy these types of posts feel free to comment down below to let me know. Thanks so much for reading :)

-Vanna xxx

Trying New Things

Hey everyone,

Today I wanted to write a shorter post, not because I’m lazy, just because some topics don’t have as much to write about and sometimes a shorter post is nice.

So I’ve chosen to write about trying new things and to be open minded.

Trying new things, isn’t very difficult.

It can be as simple as trying a new fruit or trying something you remember disliking another time.

For example, I don’t like mushrooms, and a couple months ago, my dad made a stir fry that included mushrooms. I tried, but I still didn’t like it.

What’s the worst that could have happened?

I could have ended up loving it!

As we grow up, our taste changes. By trying new things, we can end up finding out we love things we hadn’t known about or thought we would never like.

Being open minded doesn’t always have to do with foods.

You could be open minded to clothing, scents, hobbies, places or even brands.

I can NOT tolerate vanilla scents. Something about it makes me want to gag. But I try my best to smell it whenever I have the chance so that eventually it stops bothering me.

My 11 year old brother doesn’t like cheese, and hasn’t tried it in years. I know someday he will and who knows how he will react? (I bet he’ll love it)

Being open minded and trying new things can lead you to great realizations.

You could wake up tomorrow and decide you want to dye your hair purple!

It doesn’t even have to be that drastic.

Maybe something simple like trying bananas and Nutella on your pancakes.

A couple months ago I thought that dying my hair would be fun. I think red hair is stunning and I thought dying my hair ombre-brown to a natural red, would look super cool! I had NEVER seen anyone do so and I still haven’t. This summer, I will hopefully dye my hair just like this:

(This is the only picture I found of what I had in mind!)

I think this looks absolutely gorgeous.

Do something different; try something new for a change.

If you need any more advice, feel free to email me or comment down below. I tried to make this post shorter, but I guess I didn’t succeed too well. Sorry about that…

-Vanna xxx

P.-S.: None of the pictures in this post are mine.

Makeup... yes or no?

Hey everyone,

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Today i wanted to post about makeup, and whether or not i was for or against it.

For the longest time I thought makeup was wrong, useless and too much work.

Of course, when I was 6, I loved playing around with lip gloss, especially a sparkly orange one I had.

But at the age of 10 till a year ago, I never really bothered using it.

Though I watched multiple makeup tutorials and loved to roam around shoppers drug mart with Lovely, I thought it was just unnatural; makeup wasn’t something I was interested in. (Lovely= best friend)

And then I turned 13, I loved to go crazy with makeup and do absolutely insane swirls everywhere on my face just for fun.

Lovely and I dance. A couple of months ago, we went to our first performance with our new studio. Because of this, we had to wear a full face of makeup “stage makeup”, and that’s when it all changed. I was open to wearing makeup in public and I finally found a way to cover the nasty pimples I had.

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I’m not saying that I wear makeup every day or that it’s even necessary.

I just think that it’s nice to feel a little more dressed up from time to time by wearing a thin layer of mascara, some blusher and maybe a nude lip pencil.

Don’t get me wrong, I love being able to say that sometimes, I don’t wear makeup and that I feel comfortable with or without it.

Because I see makeup as a tool to compliment your beauty, not to hide your face underneath an inch of foundation.

Should you or shouldn’t you wear makeup, now that’s entirely up to you and you should try both before you decide.

Another thing to keep in mind, is to pick what products work best for you.

Don’t wear blusher if your complexion is naturally pink.

And don’t wear foundation if your skin is flawless.

Curls has very dark hair, therefore very dark eyelashes. Curls doesn’t wear mascara, but curls (I know! How ironic) her lashes. (Curls= friend)

This works for her.

What works for you?

Many people choose NOT to wear makeup because they think they don’t need it or they might be against it, this is completely fine. As I said previously, I thought so too.

If you choose you want to start WEARING MAKEUP and you don’t know where to start, YouTube is one of your best bets.

I can also give you a little advice, like to start with little things. For example, you could start with a little coat of mascara, and then you could try bronzer, blusher and work your way up to the amount of makeup you plan on eventually wearing.

Pay attention to the quantity you apply and ask friends and family you can trust to tell you what they think about it and how it looks.

Sometimes it’s also really fun to go to booths and get them to apply makeup for you.

If you don’t know how to ask your parents if you can wear makeup or not and how much they will allow you to wear, I recommend going to a pharmacy/drugstore with your mom and ask her if you could buy a little makeup.

Hopefully she will let you and you can go on from there. 

Maybe if your mom wears makeup and you see she just bought a product or has one in the bathroom, you could ask her about it and if she likes it. You could then ask if she could get you one sometime because you’d be interested in trying it. Things like that will most likely get your parents to be OK with you wearing makeup.

When you first start wearing makeup, people might judge and treat you differently (which is why you have to start little by little). I think the only advice I can give you about that is listen to their comments, take notes (maybe they have tips), and if they’re just being rude and selfish, ignore them. Wearing makeup is your choice and you stand by it.

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If you are willing to spend more money on makeup, I recommend CLINIQUE and BENEFIT I also suggest any other natural product. (Keep in mind that the products that are more expensive are usually better quality.)

I also need to mention, that i only use sample size mascaras from CLINIQUE, they don't last as long, however, contain less bacteria because it was kept for a shorter period of time.

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If you know you’re just trying it out and don’t mind using a cheaper alternative, MAYBELLINE and RIMMEL are great.

That’s all I have to say, sorry for the long post… ill try making them shorter when I can. Again, if you need any more information or advice, feel free to comment or email me, I will do my best to help J. Thank you so much for reading.

-Vanna xxx

Auditions & Interviews

Hey everyone,

Since my last post (my intro), I've been thinking.

I know there might only be a few people reading this... Maybe even none... And I have no followers, but that's OK.

I know it might take a while, but eventually I'd love to be able to say I'm helping someone. Someone that might need the help, but doesn't know who to ask.

But that's beside the point. And you’re probably not reading because of that.

It's because you are nervous about your audition or your interview (I am always), maybe you've already auditioned, or you might just have found this post and decided you'd like to read it for future reference.

So, we can all agree that auditions and interviews are very stressful!

I do want to apologize before hand for the number of times I say; interview, audition, stressful or really any other word repetitively.

Anyways, we are finally half way through the school year!

How exiting?

I want the school year to be over and I’m so relived there’s only one half left… but this time of year is so stressful! Especially for those who are planning on changing schools.

I understand this has nothing to do with auditions, but I mean it would probably be boring without pictures and I just thought that you know it’s this time of year… ;)

So first I want to say that if you have already auditioned or applied for a program or a school, do NOT worry if you haven't been accepted.

It probably has nothing to do with your talent.

You're just not what they were looking for.  

And if so, it wouldn't have been the right program/school for you.

If you have not yet auditioned, and you will be getting interviewed, then walk in looking friendly and confident (even if you aren't!).

Though you NEED to remember, it is not that big of a deal...

You won't die! (Which is what I remind myself whenever I'm feeling quite nervous)

Now, auditions are great for multiple reasons.

They prepare you for future situations that will most likely be much more important, therefore much more stressful.

If you practice with people you don’t know very well you will feel more prepared. Not only that, you will look a lot more relaxed and comfortable.

Keep in mind; you don't always walk into a room knowing who everyone is. And if you get extremely nervous when meeting new people... Especially adults (aka me) then practice makes perfect.

And I understand that might sound super lame and everyone knows that, but if you chose to take part in events like this, just for the fun of it, you will eventually walk into the "never before seen" room with absolutely nothing to worry about.

I applied for a school that I want to go to so bad! And the idea of an interview sounded terrifying, but truthfully isn’t. They aren’t trying to scare you away.

I have this friend, (I’ll try not to make this to confusing for anyone) let’s call her Curls. (If you read my intro, I want to let you know that Curls and Lovely are two completely different people) I’m calling her this because of her insanely gorgeous curly hair. And I’m mentioning her because she went to an audition for a high school, came back and told me she was definitely not in the program, she failed and that she regretted even applying!

Then I told her exactly what I told you guys. And it’s worth repeating.

You won’t die! (Even though this sounds completely ridiculous!)

You learn more by making the mistakes.

Now Curls will go to her next audition and be 100% prepared for what’s coming.

And it's OK to be nervous or stressed about auditions and interviews, especially if you've never gone to any, but just know that there will always be more opportunities and once you tell yourself that its no big deal you will realize that you have nothing to worry about. 

I also want you to remember that if you go to an audition or interview and just have the biggest feeling you haven't been accepted or chosen it is also OK. You will just be better next time because now you know what you did wrong and what you need to work on.  

Ok, well i guess that's it for now. If you need any more info about this, feel free to email me whenever. I’ll do my best to help.

-Vanna xxx

P.-S.: I just received my letter of acceptance in the mail yesterday! Yeeeeeeep!

Introduction

So, I wanted to start off by saying hello!

I’ve finally chosen to start a blog.

I’ve been wanting to for the past few months and it’s been on my mind every day since.

I want to introduce myself, but I can’t… because this blog is anonymous… at least for now. ;)

Being a teenage girl is already hard as it is. I don’t want to have to add the pressure of people I know reading this and think I sound stupid or lame.

Sound like a decent justification? I hope so…

On another note, I’m starting this blog because when something happens to me, knowing there’s someone somewhere who feels the same way, makes me feel so much better. And hopefully, when I start to write my future blog posts, you will be able to relate and feel the same way I do.

So really, I’m not only making this blog for myself, but for anyone who’s feeling like the worst things always happen to them… Or that they basically fail at life.

Because there is always someone who has lived through something worst or just as horrid as you have.

Lovely, my best friend (that is not her real name, but this will be it for now because this is supposed to stay anonymous), supports me so much! I think everyone needs a Lovely. Everybody should have someone who understands them and cares.

Reasons why you need someone like Lovely:

-      She understands what you’re going through and does her best to help.

-      She calms you down when you start to freak out.

-      She makes you laugh.

-      She listens… or tries her best to ;)

-      She’s always there when you need her and you do the same for her.

So, if you don’t have anyone or you need someone else to help, I can try my best to do so… while still being there for Lovely. <3

I’m not entirely sure what I will be writing about.

I guess we’ll have to wait and see.

Thanks for reading (if anyone has been!). If you have any feedback or suggestions, I’d love to hear them. Comment down below and let me know what you think.

-Vanna xxx